A Constellation Of You
dedication:
For my unrequited love and the person inside of me that will always prefer loving from a distance.
a collision of stars
slamming into each other
and into me
sending what the universe had planned
plummeting into the ocean
and i can’t swim
so now i’m here
with a cluster of stars
in a pattern causing the force of gravity
to always push me into you
but it is you
it’s always been you
and whatever defining moment
made the stars cling tight to this idea
of having me hang on to the design
of thoughts
surrounding you
is making me fall harder
for a man
that one can only define as
being created by the stars
-i trace your outline in the sky
you’re always going to feel a bit like home
to me
maybe because you loved me
and saw my worth
when i thought i was the most annoying version
of myself
and i know you’d have loved me
when i was younger still
and i know you’d still see my worth
when i’ve aged a bit more
but to me you’ve never changed
you’ve stayed one single thing
my affable
irreplaceable
solace of a home
-even if you’re only a person in my phone
you are the essence of what makes
humanity tolerable
you are my muse
and everything incomprehensibly
measurable of the love in this world
i want to feel
-and the love i wish i could give you